temptations

the last couple of weeks have been extremely difficult for me. i have found myself in realization about not exactly being happy in my relationship with my husband. its not something has just recently happened but something that i just recently realized i didnt think i could handle anymore. dont get me wrong i love my husband, he is a great man, he works hard for us and takes care of us when it comes to paying the bills and make sure we have food on the table. he just wasnt taking care of me. a couple weeks ago my husband sold a car he had, therefore he had a bit of extra money, things have been pretty tight around here lately when it comes to money so i had mentioned to him that i would need him to give me a bit for the several dr appointments i had coming up the next week and he went off on me, he had other plans for the money and was not willing to give me any for the dr appointments so i went and cancelled them all. i was so upset over his actions alot of stuff started flooded to me. i couldnt even rememeber the last time he had paid me a compliment or acted like he appreciated anything that i do. i also realized that we never spend anytime to together and there is no romance, or effection shown either and all these things had not bee recent events but ones that have been present the entirety of our marriage and i was distraught over it all. i was realizing i was not happy and in fact hadnt been happy in a very long time. i thought this over in my head for a few day before i ever mentioned it to him which resulted in a four hour very emotional conversation. both agreed things needed to change and change quick or we would be head towards a seperation and neither of us really wanted that to happen. and even though all of these issues have been there for years it sure didnt help me that i had an old friend from high school contact me of facebook who kept giving me compliments and was showing me attention that i had been missing for so long. it was nothing inapropriate or anything but just simple compliments on my eyes and smile and he told me how beautiful i was, and those were things i had not heard from anyone not even my own husband for years, it was flattering of course but i started to feel the temptations that could happen and that is why i decided to go ahead and bring all the problems to light with my husband. and see if this could be fixed or not. the convo between my hubby and me was about a week from out 10 year anniversary which was very emotional but when the day came, he made it amazing for me, something that truely shocked me and brought a big smile to my face. however now it is a waiting game to see if everyday life with us changes. its something i am very hopeful for because i do love this man with all my heart. i just need to know every now and again that he loves me too and wants to be with me too...so now i wait.