i be strokin

At the beginning of my senior year i would have never imagined that i would gain such a friendship with the unlikely person that i did. but after attending her baby shower, the first moment of our friendship, we were always together after that. I had other friends but none like her. Before becoming friends with her my life revolved only around my soon to be husband, with friends only at school and at work but none i actually hung out with.

It was odd how alike we were and all the things we had in common and the fun and crazy things we did together, i could go on for days. i was thrilled when she had her precious little boy, i loved him like he was my own, and loved being able to be around them all the time when he was so little. As i sit here thinking i cant help but share some of the crazy things we have done with you. we were in the generation of cruising the strip and there we were many a weekends jamming out to whip it good and strokin, while i sucked the wrapper right off a bingo dabber. back and forth we would go just laughing and having a great time. once we even talked a police officer into giving us his handcuffs so we could cuff each other and take picture which imbelieve have made it on to the internet somehow...jk. we have lit farts in my car until she lit one that caught her pants on fire as the flame followed the fart down the leg of her pants, we had to smack the fire out, it was awesome!!! and yet not the only time she tried to burn my truck up, on the way to slammin and jammin the first year, the best year, we went she lit her cig backwards and the flames were touching the ceiling, we were both screaming over that one. and now that i have brought up slammin and jammin let me just mention that we had the best time ever with our own little way of getting beads, having a naked guy with a cowboy hat covering his willy jump in the back of my truck, seeing two of the biggest titties we have ever seen in our lives, trying to scrub the soot off the back of her neck from sitting in the line of wind from the burnouts, and everything in between. It was def a weekend ill never forget.

and there is a new year that stands out to me when a she slightly lit, decided to tag along to the pizza place from a party we had been at, she informed me that the glasgow municipal airport was yearly lit, and laid up on the counter at dominos, after i told her to stay in the car, and proceeded to tell the very large guy behind that counter that she knew him and had once spanked him with a peacock feather...i for sure she was gonna get a PI. but she didnt!!! i have been with her when she caught one of her boyfriends cheating and threw the bitch down the stairs, while being stalked by another ex boyfriend at the mcdonalds, being the get away car...lol, acting retarded at the walmart and laughing in the rain cause we couldnt even walk to the car, many trips to upton and acting like lesbos, watching scary movies and getting the shit scared out of by two different guys named derek! and me screaming thinking i was dying making her poor four year old son think he was dying all because she decided to stop in the middle of a country road with a damn posume in the road right in front of us, the second posume we had seen that night...im terrified of posumes.

And as we became of age we progressed out fun to the ramada!!! dancing around having a blast, and always singing to our song, I be strokin nearly every weekend. that was were i was attacked by an old man, and where she met her husband, but not before we played with a few peoples drunk minds by telling them we were twin and i just hogged all the nutrients while we were in the womba nd that was why i was sooo big and she was soooo little...

we even almost killed her husband before he was her husband during a water fight in her house were he slipped and came down on his neck and back with feet in the air, at the same time that she was throwing a mop bucket of water on him, resulting in him laying in the floor unconscious drowning, me screaming and her peeing her pants, he, poor thing still isnt right since that night...but still married her anyways and i was able to witness it as her maid of honor!

I seriously could go on and on and on about all the crazy fun times we have had together but its about my bedtime and im prob boring you!!! But i can honestly say i have never had a friend like her...lots of good times and lots of bad, but its always be me and her through them all...and yes we have had our ups and downs also but hey what friends dont, we have always got through them as well. I just realized that even though we are still friends we are so different than we used to be, we are now two old married women with kids, housework and school work, not much time to hang out, whippin it good and strokin it to the left, and i miss it terribly sometimes especially when im sitting at home bored like i am tonight. i really love to just chat with her and think back about all the stuff we have done. oh well its still me and her, just a different me and her!!!

set myself up for this

all my life i have been a giver!!! im the one that gives all i have in every single relationship and friendship i have ever been in. i cant help its just the way that i am. i want the people in my life to know that i am there for them, that i love them and that i want them to be happy. and i do all in my power for them to know these things. family and friends i do the same. i think many times i have outdone myself and now when something is going on or someone needs something who do they come to....ME...!!! and im there as usual, to bring a laugh, listen, advice when asked, and for whatever else.
dont get me wrong its nice to feel like im needed. but who is there for the girl that is there for everyone? there are fewer than i can count on one hand. hardly anyone there and concerned or interested in the bad and good going on in my life. no one i can run too, talk too about any and everything thats on my mind at any given time. its odd to me at times when i really think of all the times i have been there for people and never not even once have they or would they probably ever be there that way for me and its just plan and simply sad. sometimes its  like with all i give to everyone else im not even worth an answered phone call or text or a call back, something that doesnt surprise me in the least but still bothers me when i sit and think about it. maybe there needs to be some change in the way i am with people, maybe i shouldnt make myself so available for this kind of thing to happen. you know the saying goes treat others the way you want to be treat and i have done that my whole life but i really feel sorry for certain ones if i start treating people the way they treat me. use me for all i have to give and then dont know me when things are so bad. oh how it would be so nice to have a FEW good friends that i could share good times with, visits, and chats, shopping, movies and whatever else we could do that would be fun. and then again to be there is something bad arose in my life...oh well this is something i have dealt with my whole life i should be used to it by now

its just a dream

so for years and years i have been having this one certain kinda dream about my husband, i have at least once a month and its always about him cheating on me. i know and if you know jason you will also know that doesnt have that in him, i really dont think he would ever cheat on me, he would end our relationship first. i never doubt him, i completely trust him therefore i have no clue why i keep having these dreams all the time. they are very descriptive and real, the kind that you cant get off your mind all day long and not only are they the same but they also take right off where the last one ended and they just continue on. in the dreams i always find out jason is cheating on me and when i confront him about it he thinks its funny has no remorse and doesnt plan on stopping, everyone else already knew and there i am looking like an idiot, and the odd thing is i always stay with him and still want to make it work knowing he is not going to change because we have children together. i would never be that way in real life, ever. for one i really dont think jason would be able to pull something like that off without me knowing, im very sneaky and sly and i always find things out when i want to, for two i would never stand for someone cheating on me and me putting up with it just because i have kids with them. it would be over and done with on the spot which is another reason why i find these dreams so weird. in one of the dreams i had found out jason had cheated on me yet again and i went and cheated on him to get back at him, also something i would never do. and then last night the dream was no different than normal except at the end of the dream i actually left him. i really wish that this means i will no longer have these dreams anymore, i dont like them at all, cause even thought i know he would never do that to me they just keep those things on my mind and i dont like that at all.

this is not the first time i have had a series of dreams but the times before they were about someone else, a friend i hadnt seen in years and in the dreams i would always see this person across the room or crowd but i couldnt ever get to them to speak to them and i wanted nothing more than to get to them and speak to them, or i would run into someone that new the person and wouldnt tell me anything or how i could reach them, it would always make me so upset because i just wanted to get to them but i couldnt. and even though i have always had very descriptive dreams lately since i have been on a new medication my dreams have been even more descriptive making them even harder to get over...i think i need some therapy or something, these things are making me crazy for real.

pray the gay away

i want to start this blog off by saying this is a blog of opinion, mine opinion and nothing more, its a very touchy subject that i am not afraid to give my opinion on even if it differs from many people i know. as i sat at home this afternoon flipping through the channels i came across a show called "our america" on OWN network, with the subject of pray the gay away, of course this caught my attention and therefore i began watching. i have family members and several friends that are gay and i personally believe you are born gay!! i dont see how people would think that you are turned gay by the way you were raised, if that was the case then wouldnt gay people come from gay people, and um thats not possible...i do not believe its a choice, i dont understand why people would choose to be gay and in many cases have their family against them, many people against them and all the hate crime against them. i also cant believe its a choice when a 4 or 5 year old knows they are gay before they ever know what sexual orientation is. i just cant believe that.

the first section of the show was about a somewhat religious group of gay people, kinda like a hidden society, where gay people get together and try to pray the gay way and that, that is the only way to be close to God! within this group never not one person ever turned completely straight even if they did try living a straight lifestyle for the most part, the majority also had problems with depression and many suicides and suicide attemps, now here is when i get very confused. the bible says being gay will send you straight to hell so you try to pray the gay away so you can be someone your not resulting in depression and suicide that in the bible it says will also send you to hell...i just dont get it, why cant people just be happy with who they are. i dont believe you can help who you are attracted to and who you love.

in the second section of the show they went to a camp for children and teenageers that were struggling with their sexual oreintation and their moto was they were totally gay and totally christian all at the same time...they taught them how to love themselves, to know that God created them the same as everyone else, and how to learn about the Lord and how to love everyone. it was nice. they also brought up something i totally agree with, they said that every single scripture in the bible can be taken differently by every single person that reads it. i may read and understand one scripture totally differently than you do. its a very individual kind of thing. They said that God loved variety, he made many different kinds of birds, bugs, and plants, why not human beings as well. just something to think about.

I am not gay. however i will never judge someone that is. if you are comfortable with yourself and your relationship with God thats great and something that should only be between you and God anyways, it shouldnt involve anyone else. I just think that everyone should love themselves for who they are and shouldnt feel like they have to change for someone else...and i promise this if either of my children came to me and told me they were gay, i would do nothing but love them with all my heart and support them the best i possible could, because regardless i know i am raising my children to be good human beings, love and be kind to other people, not to judge and to love, worship and praise God and thats all that matters to me. oh and i love me a good drag queen show....lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

funny fighting female

every since i was a kids i have been quit tough, not one to take anything from anymore and would def stick up for myself and everyone else i loved. its just natural for me, and i can be quit mouthy as well, i can hit you were it hurts with words anyday and will before i result to physical altercations. however there have been a few physical altercations in my past and even though i handled what i needed to handle at the time its quit funny when i think back on them. once as a very young teenager i was wrestling in the living room with one of my adult cousins and he told me i couldnt get him in a hold that he couldnt get out of so what did i do, wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waiste and went to squeezing until he was falling out and then my dad made me let him go...along the same time my dads friend was teaching me some karate and was told to stop teaching me because i was soaking it up like a sponge and my dad was afraid i woulod really hurt someone because one night while playing around with my dad i did one of the moves without even thinking and it resulted in him slamming against the wall cause i had kneed him in the groin.

if you know me well then you know how my relationship with my first stepmom was horrid from beginning til the end, and after making it very clear that it wouldnt be best for her to lay her hands on me, she grabbed me anyways and before i even knew it i sent her flying across the kitchen floor, i was kinda shocked i had done it myself, but for her sake she better be glad that was all i ever did cause with the hatred i used to have for her it could have been alot worse. im over it now and i find it quit comical now.... and then while i was preggie with my second child one of my lab tests came back bad and all the nurses led me to believe was that my husband had in fact cheated on me so, with the hormones running wild and the thought of my husband cheating on me i went a little crazy literally ran to the bedroom jumped on him while he was sleeping and starting beating him, screaming and crying, i couldnt help it, i later that day found out that they had mixed me up with someone else resulting in me giving them a cursing for the first out of the two times i curse the drs while i was preggie with my son.... i find it very funny now but it could have been really bad at the time...

now as i have shared some of these events with you i will now say my daughter may be following in my footsteps...one day while at my dads house visiting he was picking on riveranne and called her a name, i said not thinking a thing about it, "you should slice his throat for that" as a figure of speach to let her know that he had called her a really bad name but she obviously took me very seriously because within a few second she walked over to my dad, while he wasnt paying attention to her, she was calm and just looking at him and all of a sudden she karate chopped him right in the throat, it was awful and by far one of the funniest things i had ever seen in my life, i couldnt stop laughing making my dad madder and madder...i couldnt help it but  now i try to watch how i say things to her and to let her know that she cant really do things like things like, but she is one that will let you know what she thinksw real quick and doesnt take anything off of anyone, even her friends her own age...riveranne and my friend jenns little girl emma are the same age and good friends, once while at their house emma had hit riveranne a couple time and before we knew it riveranne had picked emma up and body slammed her on the floor, me and jenn were completely shocked, its funny to think about now...gonna have to keep an eye on her and myself.....lol

chunky dunkers

me and my bestest chunky dunker go way way back to elem school at south green. we have always been great friends, but became really close in high school until she decided to leave me and glasgow high and go to caverna, not far away i know but far enough that we didnt see or talk to each other for a while, hurt my heart actually. one week after my wedding i walked into wku glasgow campus to start my college career and there she sat, i was sosososos excited to see her. we were both going for nursing so we were in nearly all our classes together and we had a blast, copying answers on test reviews so we could memorize them for the tests, eating lunch every single week at either las mariachis or mancinos, hanging out all the time, and practically failing our first year of college, putting me on probation and maing me sit out a semester, then i got preggy with riveranne and never went back until now. just a couple months after finding out i was expecting my first child she also found out she was expecting hers (that was prob conceived on the futon in my spare bedroom)  the night her puppies were chasing her kitty...jk, and our daugters are 4 months to the day apart and super good friends as well...its awesome.

boy the fun times we have had together. her with 3 beautiful daughters now and me with my two chitlins we dont get to get together very often but when we do its hilarious, we are just alike. we have tried to get a waiter to dance in his birthday suit for her on her birthday one year, we blew up the ramada one night where she was feeling really good, got hit on by a hot ass midget and rode home singing to the top of her lungs to rebas greatest hits, all this after surviving my very first slumber party i did in BG for a big ole gal name Re-Re...or big rita who was so big her belly hung out the bottom of her shorts and the trailer shook everytime she took a step, all 20 women there were all related, one was the sister and step mom to Re-Re and they were all licking stuff off each other, we also witnessed two drug sales while we there and was for sure we were gonna be raped and killed by those women before the night was over so when we finally escaped we needed a few drinks and a few drinks is exactly what we got..LOL i couldnt have made it threw that night without her...and she wouldnt have been able to make it the night bigun was gonna kiss her and i decided it was the perfect moment to chuck a pillow at her cause she had fallen asleep and i couldnt be a witness and put her threw getting a kis from ralphie may!!! as you can see we have always been there for each other...

we are "baby balooga in the deep blue sea, you swim so wide and you swim so free" when we hit up the city pool each summer and the imfamous "freds riding fred, freds riding fred, freds riding fred, freds riding fred, THIS SONGS CALLED FRED!!!" on any car ride. but nothings beats and i do mean nothing beats the drag queen show when i talked her into sitting next to the door and one of the queens was wanting them some jennifer and run his/her hand right up into jenns stuff...you know what i mean...i thought she was gonna die, it was priceless...

we crack up everytime we are together and i love every minute of it, bestest friends is what i would call us...chunky dunkers for life!!!! love ya girl.

a perfect lil world

As i sit at the house with lots of time on my hands to think about all the things that are going on around me, i think of all the things that bother me and get on my nerves. I think of what all i would like to change and how things would be if everyone thought like me and did like me and the people around me had the same feelings as i did about things and everything just flowed together without drama all the time. oh how i wouldnt know how to act without drama knocking at my front door nearly ever single day.

In a perfect little world when a relationship was over, both parties would be friends, get along and move on, perfectly happy with their lives and happy for the other one as well, no running their mouths about each other, no fighting, and no trying to bring others in the middle and wanting them to choose sides. People would deal with their own problems quietly without wanting others to do it for them and they wouldnt take it to extremes with drugs, alcohol and talking suicide whenever something happens.

In a perfect little world, everyone would be considerate of others feelings and would live their own lives and let others do the same. no hurt feelings, and hatred. People would actually be there for people when things were good and bad and those people would actually have people there for them as well, no one way streets. Men and woma, young and old, wouldnt bring poor children into this world knowing they cant take care of them properly haveving to depend on others to do all the work to support them. Parents would teach their children to be responsible and respectful and to love one and another, instead of letting the children run the household and get whatever they want when they want it, this does nothing positive for the children and in the long run will cause more heartache and headache than good. I cant hardly stand parents like that. I also cant stand parents that to care nothing about their children, dont take care of them and allows them to be around harmful situations and people.

In a perfect little world certain individuals wouldnt think they have to out up with infedelity, dishonesty, and abuse in their relationships, they would know they deserve better and would strive to make sure they had better instead of settling because they think  thats the way love is. People would be able to tell the ones they love, that they love them, and show them every single day. family and friends wouldnt hurt each other but would lift each other up in the name of the Lord every single day. And be able to pray and praise the Lord freely and out in the open. Be able to learn and worship in churches with no hypocrites and people to judge you. there would be no lying, putting people down, and turning on the ones that have been there for you.

In a perfect little world there would be no abuse of any kind, physical, mental, sexual or substance. the would be no money troubles and people going hungry. race wouldnt matter, age wouldnt matter, weight wouldnt matter. oh how this perfect world would be so awesome. If i really lived in a world like this then i wouldnt have to deal with all the things i have to deal with on a daily basis, mostly other peoples drama that keeps my mind racing at night time and my nerves shot, boy i wouldnt know how to act but it sure would be nice huh?

Since we dont live in a world nothing like this and it is only getting worse with each passing day, our best choice is to leave all our problems with the Lord and know that he will take care of us in his own way and time and pray for each and every other person. and then in my case rely on lots of caffine and a happy pill each day....lol

childhood memories

for the most part i had a normal childhood. i had two younger sisters, two loving parents and lots of cousins, and aunts and uncles. we always had something going on and lots of fun. most of my best memories are just being with my sisters, playing, and pulling pranks on my youngest sister, i could talk for days about all the things we used to do and poor amy was usually the butt of our jokes.

now i will share some of the events that i remember so fondly that still to this day brings a smile to my face when i think of them. with me being the oldest, me and heather my middle sister would pull lots of pranks and things on our youngest sister amy, she was the baby and some what spoiled so we would mess with her the most...once we had ran out of soap so my youngest sister decided to wash her whole body with shampoo, when she got out of the shower and told us this we proceeded to tell her that everywhere you put shampoo, hair will grow and she went around for a while thinking there was gonna be long thick hair all over her body...another time that coems to mind was the day i was vacumming and heather was eating some crackers on the couch, heather and i both had very long hair when we were younger so i took it apon myself to take advantage of the situation and pull another one over on amy, we called for amy to come to the livingroom and heather crumbled some crackers on her shirt and i was gonna vacuum them up, as amy sat there watching i took the attachment of the vacumm sucked the crumbs up and then sucked heathers hair up in it, heather and i both knew that her hair would pull right out of the long attachment but amy sure didnt and she freaked and started beating the crap out me for doing that to heather, we couldnt stop laughing it was so funny, but amy sure didnt think  it was....lol

i have always loved storms as back as far as i can remember but heather and amy not so much...this one day they were calling for severe weather and i was all excited but heather and amy were terrified, with our aunt living right across the backyard and us being home alone we thought it would be best to go on over to her house for a bit while it stormed, so out the back door we went...now let me paint this picture for you, heather and amy were standing behind me as i was locking the door, with in a couple of seconds it took me to lock the back door, a flash of lightening showed and the loudest boom of thunder, as i turned heather and amy were no where to be seen, i looked far across the yard and they were standing on my aunts porch like they had been there for years waiting on me, the thunder had scared them so badly that they litterally FLEW over there faster than i have ever seen anything move, i couldnt believe it and like to have not made it over there myself because i was laughing so hard...it was like BOOM....GONE!!! hilarious i tell ya...which brings another time to mind....in the summer we would love to jump on the trampoline in the rain, it was so fun cause the rainw ould make the trampoline slippery, as my grand mother and father sat on the proch of her house right across the street from us heather and i were jumping our hearts out on the trampoline have a blast when all of a sudden while heather was midair a boom of thunder came, it scared her so badly that she started running, in midair, somehow caught some traction and ran right off the trampoline before ever coming back down, she never touched it, ran on air and was off and gone...yet another hilarious story of my life...

with me beign the oldest, me and heather were very close and both of us would fight more with amy naturally and also with me beign the oldest i found it quite fun to be the instigator as well and this one time they were fighting in the back yard and all i could do was keep it going for my own entertainment, when heather would make amy cry i would look at amy and say are you gonna take that then she would bull charge heather knocking her down, then heather would get hurt and i would look at her and say i know you aint gonna take that from your younger sister so then she would bull charge amy knocking her down and the fight went on and on, it was until they both had each other pinned to the ground while pulling each others hair that i found it in me to break them up, i swear i could have made a killing off selling tickets to that to the neighbor, it was monday night raw in my own back yard....

but now dont get me wrong the entertain ment didnt always come from my sisters, i did my fair share of it as well...once while at one of my dads friends house i went to sit down outside and plopped my butt right down in a big cow pile, yep i sit in shit...had to take all my clothes off and rode home nearly naked because of it, i also decided on trip to walmart with my mom close to halloween that i would put on a dog collar and a dog mask and go up and down all the isles barking at people that went by me, totally embarrassing my mom and make her nearly beat me when we left,,,aahhh good times...and as i grew older it just got worse, i am what you would say a fairly tall girl, and with my mother being on 4 foot 9 inches she was always a fun one to pick on and normally took it well and laughed because i was never mean about it but this one night at my uncles house during the couple years we lived with him, mom was mad at me for something and was acting like she was gonna hit me with a fly swatter, i grabbed it from her in a joking manner and held it up over my head, and stupid me said if you can reach it you can have it and whop me with it, she snapped, which isnt something she does often, she ran up the loveseat to the very tip top and as i stood there looking at her in shock, in slow motion she hurled herself off the loveseat on top of me, grabbed the fly swat and beat the crap out me with it all the while my uncle did nothing but sat there laughing his ass off over it, it really was hilarious and i learned right then and there that even though i was a foot taller than her she was still my mother and would still get me good...hilarious to think back at it.

and as i could go on and on and on for days about all the things i did when i was younger that would make you all understand that i have been crazy since birth i have decided to end it here but only for now, as more things come to mind i will return to share them with you all...there is truely nothing i love more than being with all my family thinking back and talking about all the awesomely funny things, and if you know me then you know i am one heck of a story teller and reading this on here instead of me telling you in person doesnt do them justice at all but i still hope you got a little chuckle from them and be ready for more to come in the future cause these are the things that have brought me to where i am today with this wonderful, crazy life i am proud to call mine.

brain drain

The last few weeks have some that have totally worn me out...three weeks ago one of my best friends had the a horrible tragedy, my heart still aches for her, i am just trying to be there for whatever she may need...the week after that i was horribly sick all week long and then last week riveranne had the flu...im just plum worn out.

school has been going great, i have an A in 3 of my classes and a B in the other, im actually having alot of fun with it too and even though i had decided to major in accounting and that is still one of my options i have now got something new on my mind with the spring season coming on and my life long passion for storms im strongly thinking of changing my major to meterology...im very excited about this thought except for the fact that i would def have to move somewhere else to get a good job doing it. i have been taking school very seriously this time around, i want to do good so i can do something for my family in a few years...and even though its hard work keeping up my house and taking care of my babies and homework and studying, im able to keep up on it and actually stay ahead on it and im very proud of that.

speaking of storms i was completely excited and thrilled for the first couple of storm of the year thsi last week...i can stress enough how much i really love storms i could really stand for one to come every couple of days. My kids on the other hand are not so thrilled with them, they got totally freaked out the other night most because of the tornado sirens going off...riveranne was scared but my poor little boog was terrified and wouldnt even go to bed by himself that night, it was piteful and i sure hope they grow out of it cause i love them so much.

On to drama which seem to always be in my life ins ome way, my father in law is about to make me snap, he and i havent ever really gotten along to well and he has always gotten on my nerves the last few years it has really been bad and i am so over it now i fixing to start not answering his phone calls and treating him like a jehovia (sp) whitness when he comes to the door, turn off the lights and hide!!! and i am so serious about this. over three years ago him and my mother in law got divorced, he completely went over the deep end then, always running his mouth about the situation, over and over and over and over, my hubby was very clear with him that he was not going to get into it and that he didnt want to hear about any of it either so who did he jump on.......ME!!!i have been hearing the same shit for over 3 years now every single damn time i see him or talk to him...omg im about to loose it on him for real...now not only does he run his mouth about my mother and sister in law but he had a new found drama to share with me about his recently ex girlfriend, whom im very good friends with. now he runs his mouth about her as well every single time i see or talk to him, damn get over it and move the hell on already...and another thing he is one of those people that tells you something and then trys to lie to you about it later forgetting he already told you the truth and  he really thinks he some kinda hot shit or something and that all these woman want him...omg are you serious...i mean i hear some things for the other parties but nothing like from him, he cant just get over it and move on and i cant handle it anymore, im about to have to break loose on him. ok enough about that.

so i had to call the fire dept over ot the house for the first time ever and hopefully the last the other night, opened up riverannes room and smelt this horrible burning smell in there, i jerked her up and put her in my bed and called the fire dept, they came, checked everything and didnt find anything, which was a relief but also made me nervous cause i know i wasnt making it up. i have no clue what it really was but im afraid it was riverannes heater...im afraid to turn it back on and we had trouble with ryders heater also this year, im so over these baseboard electric heaters, i want central heat and air so darn abd i cant stand it but we cant afford it right now. sucks but something we are just gonna have to deal with i reckon, hopefully we can change it before next winter. i really dont want to have to put anymore money into this dang house, i want to just sell it and get a bigger one, but that doesnt really look like something in our near future either...oh well at least we have a home.

well thought i would write some tonight since i hadnt for a while and now im done so goodnight folks