1...2...3...it sure sucks to be sick

i hate being sick. for so many reason. 1. being sick all in itsself sucks because you feel horrible, you cant think, you cant rest, and you cant get done all the many things that you need to get done, you dont feel like doing anything at all but laying in the bed and yet you still cant rest. it just all around sucks. 2. being the wife and mother when you get sick there is no one there to baby you, take care of you, make you feel better, and pick up the slack of everything you do on a daily basis, therefore with me being sick all week so far, i have had to try my best to go on with everything im suppose to do as usual, taking care of the kids fulltime, school work, the dog, picking up toys, laundry, dishes, all other cleaning and maintaining, paying bills and grocery shopping all on top of feeling like a big pile of dog poop and hardly getting any rest. and dnow both my kids are under the weather also, yay! 3. when a man (like my hubby) gets sick he acts like he is dying, he cant do anything but lay in the bed for days wanting you to wait on him hand and foot and nurse him back to health but then act like how dare you get sick when you are sick and is not willing to do anything for you...i believe my hubby was plum mad this morning when he had to get up with the kids instead of me because i hadnt rested good and felt horrible. he just acts like its a tragedy or something. wont help with any of the house work so with me not feeling like doing it, the house is plum out of control and i dont think i have it in me to get it back in order...whats a girl to do...deal with it i guess...but it sure sucks to be sick.

i just dont get it

All my life i have had to deal with things that i dont think i should have so young in life...it all started at the age of 5 while i was kindergarten when i lost my mamaw, she was my life, she was everything to me, i saw her everyday and then all of sudden she wasnt there anymore. even at the age of 5 i knew exactly what was going on and was very emotional about it. every few years after that i was loosing someone that i loved my grand daddy when i was in 3rd grade, my pa when i was in 5th grade and my ma when i was in 7th grade. each time was horrible for me...with them all being sick at the times of their deaths and on up in age it was still no easier on me.

It was not until i was 19 years old that i knew the true feeling of tragedy. it was then that i lost the first person i loved at a young age. he was a cousin to me and a very good friend and he was taken away very suddenly in a car accident. i had never in my life felt the way i did at that time of losing him that way so young, something i still havent gotten over. after that there have been several more young people that i know that have passed including one of my brother in laws...its extremely sad. you cant describe the feeling when you find out someone so young has passed before they have even lived their lives. today yet another one. a very kind soul. always the sweetest guy, fun to be around, great sense of humor and very talented artist. the brother of one of my best friends...he was so young...my heart breaks for her and her family...what do ya say? what can ya do?

i find it disturbing at times when i think of all the people in my life that i have lost, many being so young...it really makes ya sit back and think...

its very clear

it has slowly but surely come to me that i just need to sit my big ass at the house with my kids, where they can actually play, have a good time, and be kids. there are a very few places i can go with my kids where they arent always fussed at and getting on peoples nerves with playing laughing and running around. i understand and respect people who dont have kids and their homes, i do not let my kids run wild and get into things they are not suppose to get into, therefore i really dont like being told that i dont keep a good handle on my kids as well as others do. its bull!!! i believe in spanking and my children do get them when needed, when i speak my kids listen and do what i say and if an inccident arises i take care of it so i dont understand where someone could tell me that i dont and especially tell me this more than once...i dont get it. SO i have now decided to keep away, stay at home where my kids can be kids and so i wont have to worry about how others feel about the way i am raising them...plain and simple i guess huh?   just a little venting going on here.