you know this is going to be a big venting session because i have alot of things on my mind lately and if i dont get them off in some way im gonna snap on someone and it is not going to be pretty...AT ALL!!! i think of myself as a laid back kinda girl, i love to have fun, i have a large and wild sense of humor and i am very forward, and unfiltered that usually makes people like me, think im hilarious, and also a bit crazy, i dont mind one bit, its just the way i am, i say what i think whether other peoplee think i should or not, i dont care what people think of me. i say what i think, i do what i want, im open, and ready to have a good time at all times. i can be your best friend and when i feel strongly for someone i will do anything i can for them. but im def not a person that should be crossed. i dont do well with people stepping to me especially when its over something really stupid. and i dont do well with people thinking they are better than me and trying to screw me over either. i dont feel like my thoughts and feelings should be held back in attempt not to offend someone else and im def not someone that will deal with a bunch of bullshit, or take shit off of anyone therefore, not only do i have tons of friends but i also have tons of enemies. i have always been this way, its not like its something new so dont act surprised or offended by me now!!! if i dont like something you will def know about it sorry if you cant handle the truth. so on to my point with it all. i always end up being the bad guy in any situation, why? because im the one that will SAY what everyone else in the room is THINKING. i will take the heat i dont mind because i can handle it. but with that statement know that i am usually just that the one willing to speak it but everyone feels the same way i do.
ok once i am crossed i tend to hold on to that, which should also be no surprise to anyone that has known me. example: once i know that you have said you dont want your child subjected to my vulgar mouth, my none filtering, my childrens mouths, you dont like the way i raise my children or the way i handle them, you think my children are rowdy and out of control and that they are covered in some kind of contagious disease they are going to spread around, we havent been invited to your house in over a freakin year, dont be texting me and calling me now inviting me over. thats just dumb, after knowing you said and thought all those things about me and my children why in the world would i be stupid enough to come to your house with them.
i get it iam sarcastic nearly all of the time, i tend to make jokes and poke fun all the time and this is something i have always done therefore why get your panties in a bunch now over it especially after i told you it was a joke yet you still run your mouth about it, its cool though, someone people cant handle me, and dont have the kinda sense of humor it takes to deal with me what i find funny is that it took all these year before you decided you couldnt handle it anymore. im not stupid i get it, i know excatly whats going on and why. see my true colors have always been on display yours however are just now coming out. and they arent cute colors either. someone people are willing to deal with it and put up with it but me doll, im am not one of them. if you want to know exactly what i think ask me, you know ill tell you, its nothing for me to eliminate one more person. what i dont think you understand is how easy it is for me not to care. its actually a flaw of mine. i can careless in the matter of seconds and once that happens there is no going back, learned that quick this summer when i thought i could go back to putting up with someones shit when in all truth, i could have cared less for her and anything going on with her...it was just a joke to think it would be any different.
finally getting this off my chest helps some but doesnt disolve the pissed offness i have in me with all the bullshit that has been going on lately. ive just realized that nothing is going to change, so im just gonna live my life the way i always have. i can be your best friend but i can be one hell of bitch as well. holding this all in was causing me to want to blow up and it would have been bad. so read this vent session and take it however you want, print it out, take notes. but dont come at me with them this time, keep it to yourself cause we have tried the talking crap and it never does any good so no need in wasting any more breath on it...it is what it is. but i hope you know its not you and its def not me thats gonna be hurting from it all!
now after not seeing my sorry ass father in law for over a year now, and my hubby finally decided he wasnt going to fool with him anymmore either, i was sooo excited to finally have that trouble maker out of our lives and not have to deal with his antics and drama all the damn time, he sent my daughter a cold check for her birthday and two weeks after my sons birthday he decided to send him a cold check as well in card and said "see you soon" in it...WELL since i dont want to have anything to do with him, and his own son, my hubby, doesnt wnt to have anything to do with him, he has been told and numbers have been changed i would really like to see how in the world he thinks he is going to be seeing my kids....so what am i doing now, waiting for the time when that dumbass tries to show up here at my house where he knows he is not welcomed and its going to be one hell of scene. im going to let him know everything i have every thought about him and he will be take off my property by the police or ill handle it my way, one way or the other he isnt seeing my kids. with all the bullshit i have been dealing with lately i dare him to show up here. is it bad that im beyond pissed about it but excited at the same time to finally have the chance to lay into him the way i have always wanted to...shew wee. revengefull....another one of my many flaws.
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