the bad

so a while back i wrote about my mother and my father in law having somesort of twisted relationship and after blowing up on my mother about the whole things i decided that if she was gonna be stupid enough to put herself through that shit with him then i was gonna let her get what she was asking for and sure enough, sooner than i though, it all went down, and even though i wasnt surprised i was pissed. i was pissed at her for not listening to me abouthow he was and what he was gonna do to her and acting like she didnt really know how he was to begin with. i was also pissed at him even more so because he was the one that pursued my mother, filled her head full of lies, knew he was gonna do nothing but lie to her from the get go and yet still though it was necessary to ruin all the relationships involved, mine and her, jasons and him and def his and mine. at this point in my life i dont care to ever see him or speak to him ever again, i am taking this opportunity to let him know everything i have ever felt about him none of which are good, i have tried for so many years to deal with this man and i am no longer doing that because even though he is nthing but an arrogant, self centered, asshole,w ho couldnt tell the truth to save his life, he is a womanizer and all is well if you want to treat all these random whores like that, i dont care but he had to go and make it personal and try that shit with my mom and that was so beyond wrong and iw ill no longer try to deal with someone that i cant stand. so he is not welcomed at my home, i dont want him around me or my kids and if my husband does decided to let hm see my kids, it wont be anywhere near me and it wont be around whichever whore he is messing with that week, iw ould prefer that my kids not be subjected to him and his ways but he is my husbands father so i guess i can write him off completely which is what i really want to do...
on a lighter note, my mother has her a new male friends and he is super sweet, she doesnt even know how to act with him treating her so well, she deserves it, and i am so happy for her.
And i am proud of myself because slowly but surely i am letting go of the hangup i have had for a certain someone, i tried a few times to make things better and i have done all that i can do and with no luck, i think it is def time to give it no another thought and it feels great.