brain drain

The last few weeks have some that have totally worn me out...three weeks ago one of my best friends had the a horrible tragedy, my heart still aches for her, i am just trying to be there for whatever she may need...the week after that i was horribly sick all week long and then last week riveranne had the flu...im just plum worn out.

school has been going great, i have an A in 3 of my classes and a B in the other, im actually having alot of fun with it too and even though i had decided to major in accounting and that is still one of my options i have now got something new on my mind with the spring season coming on and my life long passion for storms im strongly thinking of changing my major to meterology...im very excited about this thought except for the fact that i would def have to move somewhere else to get a good job doing it. i have been taking school very seriously this time around, i want to do good so i can do something for my family in a few years...and even though its hard work keeping up my house and taking care of my babies and homework and studying, im able to keep up on it and actually stay ahead on it and im very proud of that.

speaking of storms i was completely excited and thrilled for the first couple of storm of the year thsi last week...i can stress enough how much i really love storms i could really stand for one to come every couple of days. My kids on the other hand are not so thrilled with them, they got totally freaked out the other night most because of the tornado sirens going off...riveranne was scared but my poor little boog was terrified and wouldnt even go to bed by himself that night, it was piteful and i sure hope they grow out of it cause i love them so much.

On to drama which seem to always be in my life ins ome way, my father in law is about to make me snap, he and i havent ever really gotten along to well and he has always gotten on my nerves the last few years it has really been bad and i am so over it now i fixing to start not answering his phone calls and treating him like a jehovia (sp) whitness when he comes to the door, turn off the lights and hide!!! and i am so serious about this. over three years ago him and my mother in law got divorced, he completely went over the deep end then, always running his mouth about the situation, over and over and over and over, my hubby was very clear with him that he was not going to get into it and that he didnt want to hear about any of it either so who did he jump on.......ME!!!i have been hearing the same shit for over 3 years now every single damn time i see him or talk to him...omg im about to loose it on him for real...now not only does he run his mouth about my mother and sister in law but he had a new found drama to share with me about his recently ex girlfriend, whom im very good friends with. now he runs his mouth about her as well every single time i see or talk to him, damn get over it and move the hell on already...and another thing he is one of those people that tells you something and then trys to lie to you about it later forgetting he already told you the truth and  he really thinks he some kinda hot shit or something and that all these woman want him...omg are you serious...i mean i hear some things for the other parties but nothing like from him, he cant just get over it and move on and i cant handle it anymore, im about to have to break loose on him. ok enough about that.

so i had to call the fire dept over ot the house for the first time ever and hopefully the last the other night, opened up riverannes room and smelt this horrible burning smell in there, i jerked her up and put her in my bed and called the fire dept, they came, checked everything and didnt find anything, which was a relief but also made me nervous cause i know i wasnt making it up. i have no clue what it really was but im afraid it was riverannes heater...im afraid to turn it back on and we had trouble with ryders heater also this year, im so over these baseboard electric heaters, i want central heat and air so darn abd i cant stand it but we cant afford it right now. sucks but something we are just gonna have to deal with i reckon, hopefully we can change it before next winter. i really dont want to have to put anymore money into this dang house, i want to just sell it and get a bigger one, but that doesnt really look like something in our near future either...oh well at least we have a home.

well thought i would write some tonight since i hadnt for a while and now im done so goodnight folks